I am finding I’m going through a period of nesting just like I did when I was pregnant. I feel this need to get things in order, prepare things for me to do while I’m in recovery to keep my brain busy, actually it’s things I’m struggling to find time for on a daily basis when I’m just living.
I’m tidying cupboards, organising the freezer, constantly cleaning, all these funny little things I find myself doing when I’m having a spring clean I suppose. However writing this I’m forgetting the most important spring clean I need to do and that’s to myself, only the most important bit. The intention has been there but I think I’ve been occupying my brain with all that other stuff and avoiding me !
I have decided I am going to have a remembrance ceremony for my womb to move into this next era of my life. I am going to channel my goddess Lakshmi (she is where my name Padma was birthed from so very apt) and I’m having a glorious set of mala beads created from my beautiful friend, Amelia. Myself and Amelia have never met but she has been the creator of my beads for some time now and we have bonded through many synchronicities with our lives. Once again we find ourselves going through this exact same period (maybe not one of them for much longer 😂) and having a hysterectomy within weeks of each other, only confirmed in the last week!
I have had to give my head a little shake and a wobble in creating this blog as doubt likes to creep its way in and bite arse with feelings of worth and whether I’m good enough or important enough to be heard.
The only work I intend to do during recovery is on myself, yoga, therapy, reflexology, reiki and meditation oh and this, this will be like my own bit of journaling through the process. Oh and this is a really weird one my belly has started to become swollen over the last few weeks which I think could be a metaphor for what is happening to me right now….. I’m about to birth my womb and make way for a whole new version of myself….
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